Over the last three weeks I’ve been training with the parallel bars. My last blog was actually written about starting this new step in my recovery. It was a very different feeling from walking with a trainer, which I was doing prior to the parallel bars. It took more effort in my lower back and trunk to find my center of balance and keep it as I took each step. When I would walk with the trainer they would help out with balance. Needless to say, it was harder work. The one thing that was a big challenge with walking the bars is that the bars themselves are very thick and hard for me to grip. This got me thinking that if I can stand by just holding onto something, I could probably walk with a walker and electrical stimulation on my right leg (that’s my weaker leg that still needs help from an e-stim).
When I went to physical therapy Thursday I bought up my idea to my trainer. He also thought it was a great idea, so we tried it out. Turns out my idea was a pretty good one. It was so much easier to grip the smaller handles of the walker. It also was a lot easier to balance myself with the walker, which I wasn’t expecting, considering there’s wheels on the walker making it less steady.
This was a big lesson for me to start taking more risks with this recovery. I’m always nervous to take the next step, because of the uncertainty of what the outcome will be. If I just do it and don’t worry about failing I will heal faster. Either way this new milestone in my recovery has bought me a great feeling of relief that things will continue to get better, and that this hard work is indeed paying off. At times that can be a huge struggle, the feeling of working and not seeing immediate results. It can really test your belief in yourself and recovery. But by pushing forward and seeing past the doubt, goals can be and will be achieved.
If your dreams don’t scare you, they aren’t big enough.